Such a maddening disease addiction is. Just when we start to think our children are getting along down the road of Recovery, something enters that road, that catches their eye or lands on that one area inside of them that is still broken, and they pick up that “gun” (their drug of choice) and wonder if they can just play with it this one time… and little did they know it was loaded with a lethal dose and they are gone in a blink of an eye…
In a matter of two short weeks my son has lost two friends. The first clean for nearly 9 months, and the newest of losses, had completed Teen Challenge. Both of these young men’s lives had been ravaged with addiction, both had seen many days of victory over it.
When the news came to us on Saturday of this newest loss, it hit harder than the first. This was a young man who our family knew well. My adult children grew up with him, had been in youth group with him, he had spent a lot of time with our family over the years.
As I stood with my son giving him the news, I watched his face go white as I told him. This hit too close to home for him. He had just seen this friend a few days before. He told me he didn’t look so good on that day. We talked about how choices that we make can have life changing and even life ending consequences.
I don’t think any of our loved ones caught up in addiction think they will be the one to lose their life. When actually every time they partake of their drug of choice they are in fact playing Russian Roulette with their very life. Especially for those who have had a good stretch of clean time, overdose and death can hit them quicker than those who are still caught up in it on a daily basis.
As of this writing my son has been clean now for just over 2 months. He has been able to stay so, even in the midst of some pretty difficult circumstances, such as living in an environment with an active user. (He has since left that place). His strength and resolve to stay clean seem apparent today, and it is my honest prayer that he never chooses to play Russian Roulette with his life ever again.