Recovery had always seemed like it was passing them by. This mom often wondered if they would ever get here. Not that here is a static place, its always moving and changing. At some point about 10 months ago my son and his girl decided they were ready… that they didn’t want to live chasing a drug anymore. Each one spent 5 days in a detox last October, and have continued walking in recovery. It hasn’t been easy. They chose to use methadone to help keep them from using. That coupled with daily accountability and counseling have brought them safely to 10 months (plus/minus) without using heroin.
Now I know there are many schools of thought regarding Sobriety and Being Clean. And I have vacillated back and forth between all of them. I guess until you have been met face to face with someone living and succeeding through the process you can never truly know for sure how you will respond. Our ideals as parents as to what Sobriety is suppose to look like to qualify as Sobriety is nearly a joke. We aren’t the ones trying to beat this demon… I have become a firm believer that whatever it takes to stop shooting heroin into your body; be it Methadone, Suboxone, AA, Teen Challenge, Living in a Sober Community… fill in the blanks, whatever it takes is whatever it takes. And once they have gotten some clean time under their belt, the rest will come.
Not six weeks after my son and his girl said enough was enough, they found out they were expecting. And on July 27, at 6:05pm our beautiful grandson was born. My son and his girl have weathered a mighty storm, and have come out the other end head over heals in love with this sweet little boy and are determined to move heaven and earth to keep him safe.
This Momma (grandmomma)’s heart if FULL of love, joy and a bit of pride as I have watched my son become a dad.
10 months is a long time, not nearly long enough, but its beginning and its already producing fruit in his life. For that I am glad.